wid my teeth .. hiks2 .. i ate dis padang food, rendang, then i realize something was wrong wid my teeth .. like d place has been changed abit,a nd i dot find comfortable enough ...
how i regret that i ate .. when i supposed to do fasting .. hehe .. i wasnt sure i intend to do fasting since i m quite sure that it is the day to get my period ...hehehe .. bad me!
has it ever happened to you??
when u r down or feeling blue
when u need someone's to hold ...
(lupa hehe)...
when u call out my name and u know wherever i am
i come running, to see u again
winter spring summer or fall .. all u have to do is call
and i'll be there yeah yeah you've got a friend ...
i wish i could have someone to talk to bout my problems now ..
but i know anyone would understand and give d solution ..
i just didnt like when i heard that my mom almost cried ...
when my mom sounded so desperate ...
n i feel like i wanna cry to ...
how i wish i could help and change the past ..
how i wish that i could make him understood how hard it was and is for my mom ...
how i wish that he keep trying and change ..
Ya ALLAH .. mudahkanlah kami ...
kadang2 gw ngerasa dimanfaatin oleh temen gw sendiri,
kadang2 gw ngerasa terlalu mengalah dan kurang outspoken,
kadang2 gw ngerasa gw terlalu mikirin org lain padahal belum tentu org lain mikirin perasaan gw,
seringnya gw ngerasa gw berusaha yang terbaik buat org lain, tapi org lain bahkan dont even look at me or saying thx at all.
well i wasnt supposed to expect someone saying thx, but at least they react as they appriciate me for what i've done. It's that too much??
for example:
she was complaining that her computer turned off by itself. And then she kept complaining that she got scrap computer, that always going to be broken.
I kept quite, not do anything. Coz she asked someone else to help her. She kept complaining for like whole day that it cause me headache. She wanted someone's to pick up her computer, dealing with the electricity,changing the computer, being so spoiled that making someone's do the jobs for her.
break time, she keeps complaining, and i'm helping her. But she just dont say thx. I kinda forgot it. and then she was angry with me because of my boss didnt invite her to the meeting, technical meeting, which i try to understand that probably she has no capabilities in IT at the moment.
i try to forget what happend yesterday, and then i try to learn and hope that i wish she feels better, i mean the way she treats me.
And then what i felt this morning was, that i felt she didnt change her mood. I was like ... ow ow.. i'm in trouble.
And just now she keeps complaining that she wants the TV turned on. But she doesnt help much with the electricity, move and arrange the TV on the table. That's all i got.
I just realize that i even cant see the TV. damn it! and then i express it .. she just said nothing .. nothing to help even a suggestion ...
and then she took her hp from d charger that put on my table, and she even doesnt return it back. And i'm the one who s returning back.
and i just keep it in my heart trying to smile ...
ikhlas in ikhlas ... let it go let it go ...
u have to control ur emotion which lately maybe u showed it too much!! so learning in learning in!
be patient!
control your emotion!
hmm is it caused by my starving stomach?? lol
i got dis friend name cima, she works wid me in subdivision. We take care of public relation, i think. I mean our job description r collecting news from newspaper or magazines dat related bout our organization, preparing for press release, manage d website of our organization. Well i got dis boss name dian, he's kinda wierd too. He used to play alone. Call it one man show. he never told us to do something until he was lazy or in a way dat he's been gone so we had to do dat.
My part of job is surely related wid d sites. I kinda interested i dat stuff, and wanna learn. So he sees me as i'm capable. While cima is handling d collecting news job and be ready if dian is not around to prepare d press release.
k d problem is, cima wants to be involved though she doesnt show an interesting way to be considered as capable in IT thing. D wierdest part is often sometimes, dian never make us involve in any important roles. Some time he ask when he had to. like being pushd in d corner by d bigboss. But in other times, well we rnt asked to be involved at all.
Lately, i was in doubt whether i'm gonna be involved in site development dat will be done by consultant. Especially since i wasnt told to do so. Dat's y i keep quiet and just pay attention wid what happend around d office. Well suddenly he needs me, and he told me to do so. ANd cima wasnt told to. So she kinda upset. Showing her upset to me.
What a wierd situation. I'm pretending not to know. I mean i have told dian to involve both of us. Incase, i wasnt around, so she can back me up. Yeah .. but still dian doesnt get it. He just smile. Well at least i tried, and god knows i tried.
well .. dat's what happen to me. I m trying to be nice, but sometimes ppl just dont understand.
ALLAH MAHA BESAR
